I went to weight watchers again Thursday. It had been 2 weeks because of the hurricane. I wanted to have lost 6 pounds but i lost not quite 4. It was good enough to get me another 5 pounds star. I have been thinking of where to put my stars. I got a bookmark for my first 5 pounds. I would rather have a star. Perhaps i should put my stars on my bookmark. When i reach 25 pounds i will get a refrigerator magnet. That will be good.
I am learning that weekends are much harder than weekdays. I think several factors are involved. I am trying to figure out how to counter those factors, but maybe i will just have to accept that weekends are not going to go so well and make up for them on weekdays.
What factors have you identified?
And I think putting the stars on the bookmark would be good. I was thinking that myself, actually.
What factors… Mainly that Luke is home and he expects food, which puts me in the kitchen It is hard not to eat when i am thinking about food, preparing it, and when it is a meal, after all. And i do not want to make luke eat what i am eating. Not yet anyway. Once i am nearing his percentage of overweight, i will encourage him to join me, but right now, vanity and the jealosy factor keep me from actively encouraging. I would be glad for him to loose weight, health-wise, but it would be so frustrating right now because he would loose so much faster than i can and then he would look so good and i would feel even more like a tank when i am with him. So, for now, i am choosing things that we can both eat ( more vegies and leaner meat may be all he needs to drop his pounds) but i also am choosing things that appeal to him which is sometimes hard for me. For example, breakfast…. he wants biscuits and gravy and sausage or bacon. He wants pancakes or waffles or french toast. My ideal breakfast is one egg and a piece of toast, unbuttered or lightly buttered, and maybe, for a treat, a small piece of lean ham.
Now don’t get me wrong, Luke does not require that i cook. He is perfectly willing to go to a restaurant, but right now that would be harder than cooking for me. I have to add that Luke is being very supportive. He has not once brought in a tempting treat and when he wanted to go to IHOP last weekend and i said that i did not know what they served for breakfast that i could eat (i think their low cal stuff is based more on fruit than i can) and did not know if i could withstand the temptation to nibble a buttery syrupy pancake, if there was a stack right there on the table, he apologised and said he wasn’t thinking (so i made him biscuits and only enough gravy for one).
Another factor about Luke being home is just friction and frustration. Sometimes we are fine together, but sometimes we rub each other wrong, or, worse, have a spat. Then i get all emotional and upset and i don’t really have a good way to release it, so i want to turn to my old solution, and eat. Food is a great tranqualizer. One of these days, i will be able to take off walking when i want. Walking is a great way to difuse emotions.
Is Dad willing to go to restaurants by himself? Pick up something for himself to eat on the way home, something like that?
If you could work out a time share arrangement – that you would only have to cook on Mondays and Wednesdays and weekends, or something like that.
If he’s being supportive, this might be the time to suggest something like that.
When you are emotionally eating, what about reading or sewing or something like that as a substitute? Now that you have the large back room for yourself, it is probably a nicer retreat for you.