Well I am holding steady……. I have read that when you lose weight you starve your fat cells and they cry out to be filled. I think mine are crying out.
I am not happy. My body is soft. I feel spongy. It is not so bad at this point that i could not get used to it, but i poke myself every once in a while and gross myself out with how i feel, especially when i think of how much worse it will be when i loose more. I saw a young woman on Dr Phil who lost about what i want to lose and her body was horrible. I wonder how much “reconstruction” it would take to make a body like that something a person could bear to live in. I wonder if i could afford it.
I’m sure it can be taken care of and I do believe you created a fund to help do that.
I don’t know what kind of a situation I’ll be in when you start really considering it, but I’d like to think that I could help in some way.
hey mom
sounds like you need some encouragement right now.
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So, a couple of points …
I think you need a new short term goal. You have your final goal, but then you had the end of year goal. So maybe if you made a by start of summer goal, or something like that, it would help you stay focused.
Next .. think of this body feeling as a sort of transitional phase. All the fat cells are loosened up and shifting around; should be easier to flush them out. Or whatever visual you want. Exercise now might also help to persuade these floating cells to relocate where you’d like them to – since they are floating, perhaps you can redirect them more easily. However you’d like to think about that.
And maybe what you’re feeling is nascent musculature. Forming muscles feel different from finished muscles – as they develop and lengthen, they’ll feel different. On the topic, tell me how the swimming is going. I’ve been thinking, you’ve been in this particular class for a while. Maybe, with the weight lost and the experience with the class, maybe it is time for you to move to a different class. So .. details. How much are you swimming? How often? How challenging is it (as in, is it still challenging)?
Next, same as Chris above. When you really start considering reconstructive surgery, I’d like to think that I could help in some way. Get your estimates now. See what the cost is for what you’d need, for what you’d like, and for what you’d dream of. Let’s see what the reality of these costs are. I’m sure they’re high, but I’m also suspicious that you might be imagining them higher.
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yep…
i won’t beat a dead horse and repeat everything ramona said (but just read it again). A long term goal with short term milestones ++++.
I would agree that you are in a transistional phase and your body is beginning to remake itself. It may be a great time to consider making your workout a little more challenging or trying a more advanced water class (which are totally fun!!!). With warmer weather and more daylight coming, maybe invest in a pair of good walking shoes (New Balance comes in widths for women, including extra wide … Ryka is another great brand) and you and Luke can go for an evening walk together. Don’t stop swimming if that’s what you like, just change it up a little for some excitement. They do more upper body in the advanced classes too… work those arms and upper back!
I know it is tough to see some of the changes happening, but keep that this change good in alot of ways…you are gaining muscle, strength, stamina, mobility, heath (reducing risk factors by decreasing fat mass and releasing happy endorphins through exercise), and weight bearing exercise helps reduce the risk of osteoperosis (combined with diet). I remember that there was a promise of Hawaii and the Smithsonian in there from someone and that is something that all of this will eventually lead up to. But most of all…I think that weight loss is for YOU most of all.
Ultimately we’re here for you. We love you and support you.